Blue for the sky
that fills these fields with praise"
Lord, I join the color green's song. Fill me with praise for You.
Photos: taken walking our winter wheat fields...
Thank you, kind Amy, for sharing this song and praise ...
But the name etched here in stone on the wall next to where I’ve slept these handful of nights makes me catch my breath. Not an artist, or a philosopher, but of a patient man who probed for meaning, wrestled a mystery, for nearly twenty years. One who fingered lines and pictures scratched in stone, the language of an empire, a civilization: the Egyptian hieroglyphics. And found the key, decoded the cipher. Understood.
My head laying in the dark loft, hand reaching up to finger centuries old beams, I pray. Can I too figure the riddle of being here, in a few short hours unravel the language of life that led me here?
My last day in Paris we do what we’ve done everyday: touch her past, taste her breads and cheeses, listen to her sounds on every street corner, violins, guitars, cellos, watch her international faces and vibrant colors.
I find an island of quiet in a monastic bookstore off Rue de Rivoli, a spray of blushing heritage roses creeping up sun-washed stone. A young nun in a long blue robe gracefully serves browsers in hushed, lilting French, her fawn eyes inviting, welcoming.
I too drift through stacks of Bibles, French titles, and back by old wooden stairs climbing up stone wall, standing in a pool of afternoon sun, I pick up a CD of hymns entitled “Eucharisteo.” I lay my hand over the word. I remember, this word to live and die by, this life key. Key.
I run a finger over “eucharisteo” like it's Braille, touching meaning. Isn’t this too a bit of deciphering why I am here, what every day means? God gives grace, we give gratitude, together we experience joy.
I take up the word, turning it over again and again in my mind, feeling its truth, as I walk across the cobble courtyard from bookstore to church. Inside, the vaulting space is still. The air feels old, the floor, holy. In the shadows of an arch’s lofty heights, I sit on a low stool and talk to God. I tell Him what little I do know. Tell Him I don’t know exactly what I am doing here in Paris, what my purpose is, what the meaning is for my time here. I tell Him that long waves across the ocean, home is loud, I am sinful, and there too I wrestle to figure what He’s writing on my days.
I tell Him I am a sparrow misplaced. Here, there. Everywhere?
A hand touches my shoulder and I look up. My friend’s found out which church we’ve wandered into, hands me St. Gervais’ welcome brochure. And the words that I happen to glance upon shimmer, flash:
“Since human beings are created as the most beautiful image and likeness of God, the monks and nuns want to pray and to meet God in the city, among its inhabitants…. In the heart of the city they are called to love, prayer, work, hospitality and silence, called to be chaste, poor, obedient, humble and joyful, all while living in the heart of the world.”
And the riddle cracks open. I walk out of the maze. The words, the world, falls open, understood. I understand.
Living eucharistically, gratefully receiving now, wherever, however, in the world that may be, one meets God. In the heart of teeming Paris. In the heart of my noisy home. In the heart of my own soul chaos.
I am here, wherever I am, because He is here.
I don’t have to get away from the people to find God; I don’t have to seek out a retreat to commune with Him. He is not confined to the prescribed, the predictable. He is everywhere. He is in the midst of the masses, the grime, the cacophony. Open-handedly receiving the gift of the present, we receive His presence, His work for us in the moment.
I read the hieroglyphics of here: While living in the heart of the world, I may live in His heart.
I turn to face my friend, look into her seeking eyes, warm face. I am here, available, present to His presence.
I’ve flown home to the heart of God.
Father, in the heart of today, let me live in Your heart. Wherever I am.
Scripture drink:
"Surely the LORD is in this place, and I was not aware of it..." Gen.28:16
Photos: taken in the heart of Paris




It never ceases, this wind. It is endless, rippling through billions of wheat blades, dancing with the maple leaves all up the lane. Invariably, faithfully, this wind comes, sometimes whispering on breezes, sometimes roaring in the rush of it all; always more to say. It is constant.
But I know little of that, constancy. His inspired Word reads, “Pray constantly.” And I think, spooning honey into mixing bowl, if only I knew how to be the wind. Constant. Like the Spirit, always moved and moving, closer, onward, upward.
Life stifles under glaring sun, and I know prayers like a desperate gust, an imperceptible breath, hot and too near. Lukewarm.
Once I slept a July night in the nearness of a travel van, sweaty legs sticking, summer suffocating while I writhed. I needed wind. Opening the oven door, I went into night, searching. Toes found black surf rolling up the sand and the sky currents, wave after wave, washed cool over skin. That’s what I want, winds over water, fresh prayers, reviving, steady rhythms. And sometimes you have to move to find the wind.
So I do.
I stumble into it right there in the lulling routine of bread-making.
“Thank you, Lord, for grains of salt. For the color of this oil, sun streaming gold through its gold, the way it splashes into flour, pools into yeast foaming at the edge. Thank you, Father, for the stringy sinews attached to each bone in these fingers that scoop and pour and measure and stir…”
The wind sweeps in and I feel alive.
This is not practicing the presence of God, but the practice of waking to His presence. When I pray praise, I wake to Him who rides in on the air I breathe. That close. When, moment by moment, I attend to all that fills the now, and give thanks for it, this is to pray constantly.
“Wherever you are, be all there,” said Jim Elliot, that esteemed missionary martyred for Christ in Ecuador. Wherever you are, be entirely present to God who meets you in that space.
Too often, I don’t know how. The possibilities of problems that lurk around the next corner lure me on into worry. The pain of all that failed in the past trip me up in regret. I run ahead on the road, slamming into anxiety. I run back the path, grabbed by disappointment. I struggle to stay in the present, to be all here wherever I am. Yet attending to the beauty and bounty of each singular moment, paying attention to now by praying thanksgiving for this moment, and this moment, and this moment, I stay here. I become wind in this place, constantly present, constantly praying.
“Thank you for the warm softness of dough in hands, the tucking of this flecked goodness into pans old with history. Father, thank you for this stream of water gushing simply from a tap to wash away baking, for son who folded these dishtowels, the corners matching, folds straight.”
Is this communion unending?
“Wherever you are, be all there,” is possible as I give thanks for what is just now. This is meeting God who is the great I AM. I AM fills the present moment. I am learning that gratitude ushers into the grandeur of He who spills with glory now. Giving thanks is a way to be all here, a way to meet the I AM who is here.
But He too is the Alpha and the Omega, the One back there on the road, the One further up. He is both ahead and behind. We can rest in the memories of His past faithfulness , trust in the hope plans He has for our futures. So we are released to the joy of simply staying all here, knowing His goodness wherever this moment has us.
On a routine day in the kitchen, the clouds racing overhead, I find the sacred in the ordinary. I know wind. The practice of praying thanks for wherever I am, and whatever I have, this is to pray constantly, to meet God and live in His presence.
The bread rises, the wind blows, and I am all here, giving thanks.
Could there be more?

'Our Father who is in heaven,
Ours... You are all of ours (whether we acknowledge our lineage or not.) You are who we all have in common.
Our Father... we come to You, Abba Daddy, not to an unfeeling Master, but to You with a tender, Father's heart.
Our Father who is... Someone sits upon the throne, directs this cosmic play. The universe does not haplessly careen. You are.
Our Father who is in heaven... And the heavens are not a far-flung corner of the extreme atmosphere where time clips eternity. The heavens are the sky that falls around, the air that touches our skin, the medium in which we breathe, fill our lungs with. That is where Our Father is... You are close.
Hallowed be Your name.
Hallowed is Your name, holy. Keep me from profaning, belittling, treating as common, all that is holy, because of Your name. May I live without shoes, for all this -- everywhere You are-- is holy.
Your kingdom come ... not mine, not our plans, only Your kingdom come.
Your will be done... not my will, not our plans, only Your will be done. For this is the crux of living at Your feast table, of taking the cup, of following Christ.
On earth as it is in heaven... and in heaven the whole host of angels bow down and worship, give praise and thanks, crying Holy, Holy, Holy. Do I do that which is done in heaven?
Give us this day our daily bread... I trust that in this day, You'll give me what is nourishing, what I need. Keep me from chewing at tomorrow's worry, gnawing at yesterday's regrets. Today, I will simply collect the manna You've given for this day, and know that what You rain down in this day is what is best. My daily bread. Cause me to give thanks and eat what You give.
And forgive us our debts, as we also have forgiven our debtors... We are indebted to You beyond accounting. For arteries that faithfully pump, blood that endlessly courses, neurons and synapses that perfectly fire. For sun orb that rises and warms, for a Cross beam that supports the universe, for this waterfall of mercy that washes away our stubborn pride stains. There is no end to our debts. And yet You, with a Father's heart, graciously forgive the incomprehensible. How could we not forgive today?
And do not lead us into temptation, but deliver us from evil... When we follow Your leading, we are delivered from the clutches of the dark and into the wide open spaces of light.
For Yours is the kingdom and the power and the glory forever. Amen.' ... always, only, utterly Yours. Amen. So be it.
And before I've begun, I've stopped. For stop signs are but havens of soul rest.
So now, having prayed the way He told us to, I begin.
Part of this week's focus on prayer
Image: One of this farm girl's favorite by Jean Francois Millet
"O God, I have tasted of Thy goodness, and it has both satisfied me
and made me thirsty for more.
I am painfully conscious of my need for further grace.
I am ashamed of my lack of desire.
O God, the Triune God, I want to want Thee;
I long to be filled with longing;
I thirst to be made more thirsty."
~A.W. Tozer
Part of this week's focus on prayer
“There’s a stop sign there, you know!”
Color, shame, floods my cheeks. But before I can nod, mumble an apology, he and his diesel pick-up rumble off.
“That wasn’t very nice of him. You had stopped, Mom.” Joshua’s passenger seat defense tries to soothe.
“Why did that man yell that?” Hope’s turns back after the truck’s dust cloud, looking for answers.
Flustered, I carefully scan to the west, then east, then west again, before creeping forward through the intersection. And then manage a feeble explanation.
“He was concerned I wasn’t going to brake in time. That I hadn’t seen the stop sign. It scared him. And that’s fair.”
The wind blows through our open windows, our hair. In the rush of spring, I wonder if each of us replay his words again, the scene, reading his anger as fear. But maybe they don’t, their young faces silently watching the meadow slip close to the road with its petticoat of white trilliums. Maybe it’s just me thinking about stop signs nearly missed.
I’m like that. Always rushing, hardly braking in time, off again. In a hurry. So much to be done. Or so I think.
What hard stops in my life have I been driving through---or hardly pausing for?
How often am I mindfully slowing to intersect my time with God? Early, throughout, and late. Or do I barely make meaningful time at anytime in my day to commune in lingering, unhurried ways with God? Somedays, yes. Somedays, no. There are too many rolling stops.
The meadow retreats and waving fields of greening wheat lap up along the roadside. The children, hands pointing and voices sure, debate whether that farmer is planting corn way off in a field on the horizon, or if he’s drilling in beans. And it’s just me thinking about stop signs nearly missed and slowing to meet with God.
I’m listening to the prophet in a pick-up: There are stop signs here, you know. So I’ll stop and linger long in prayer.
To avoid life crashes.
Lord, if life is crashing... have I been running stop signs?
Today, it's all speeding by so fast, I simply have to stop and pray.
Part of this week's series on prayer...
Related: John Piper on Be Devoted in Prayer
Read an excerpt of Praying with the Church, Following Jesus, daily, hourly, today
Et-Tu: Schedules and Hard Stops and Permanence
Praying the Hours
We can never hear the story too often...
Let it awe us all over again.
Fifteen minutes to fall in love all over again...
We say, "Yes, God. YES!"
(My apologies... you may want to scroll again to bottom of screen and pause music.)

Today, Lord, help me learn...
Father, today I pray for eyes to behold the radiance of
Him who is our only Light....
(A morning filled with singular adoration.
Later, Mother's Day words and reflections...)
"May the peoples praise you, O God; may all the peoples praise you. Then the
land will yield its harvest...." ~ Ps. 67:5-6
"I blog about negative stuff for the same reason that newspapers aren't filled with good news: because *usually* (though not always), "good news" isn't that interesting to talk about."
I understand. I relate. It's a common consensus. Who can market gratitude, praise, good news?It is so: Good News often seems less than compelling. I too have often brushed it aside, apathetic. I pray for grace to learn new ways:
"For I am not ashamed of this Good News about Christ. It is the power of God at work..." ~Ro.1:16
Good news, praise, thanksgiving, exalting, this is the power of God at work. This is what will change our hearts. This is what will prosper our land, bless us with yield, bounty, harvest.
And, really, why wouldn't it? Because when we think on the lovely, the noble, the right, "whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy" (Phil. 4:8) ... we are thinking on very God Himself:
"Sing praises to His name, for it is lovely." ~Ps. 135:3
"And when we see Him,
There is no beauty that we should desire Him.
He is despised and rejected by men..." ~Isa.53:2-3
spongy hearts discovered in woods grace Nature Shelf
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Mama's silver hair in golden light leading little hands to
pin, stitch, sew blanket
delicate petals carefully sketched, eyes slowing to see
In need of joy's elixir? Take a moment and click through the Gratitude Community in the sidebar's blogroll. You'll be blessed. Nothing changes the world like giving thanks.
Have you considered establishing gratitude as a personal soul fixture? Just grab a scrap of paper lying around and begin counting the blessings, with your own 1000 Endless Gifts:
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Both of us, this man to whom I covenanted and I, our lives of breathing began down the same hospital hall. We birthed our children too, a few decades later, in those very same starch white rooms. My sister says we'll all likely die here.
We're content with here. Here where we went to school with our dental hygenist who attends the same church as my sister-in-law, the same church as my hairdresser, who's a sister to our family doctor's nurse. It's comfortable, this shelter of a place where you know and are known.
Like a roof that's grown moss. A long shelter.
I have heard it said, and, yes, fervently believe, that "The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom." And so it is.
Get you a roof.
One Who has sheltered the expanse of space before the winding up of time. A long shelter, weathered and worn and still bearing strong. One you can intimately know and by Whom you are deeply known.
Move in and watch the moss grow.
Aged velvet absorbing millenia of rains pelting down.
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ground beef turnovers, wrapped while steaming, ready for the field
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Joshua volunteering to wash up the dishes while I pack meals
:::farmers eating food on field's hem, resting for a moment from planting food
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dirt and kids and fed husband and that warm feeling of being alive
looking at life in the rearview mirror
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barren fields ready to swell with seeds, life, yield
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Sunday morning coming down,
Little Girl waiting in light for Daddy, shoes, church
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living in Light, shoes on,
pilgrimaging towards Father, Heaven, Home.
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In need of joy's elixir? Take a moment and click through the Gratitude Community in the sidebar's blogroll. You'll be blessed. Nothing revives a heart like giving thanks.
Have you considered establishing gratitude as a personal soul fixture? Just grab a scrap of paper lying around and begin counting the blessings, with your own 1000 Endless Gifts:
Why begin your own One Thousand Gift List --(drop me a line if you do, and I'll add you to the "1000 Endless Gifts" blogroll in the sidebar-- we invite you to join the Gratitude Community!)

For attractive lips, speak words of kindness.
For lovely eyes, seek out the good in people.
For a slim figure, share your food with the hungry.
For beautiful hair, let a child run his/her fingers through it once a day.
For poise, walk with the knowledge that you never walk alone.
People, even more than things, have to be restored, renewed, revived, reclaimed, and redeemed; never throw out anyone.
Remember, if you ever need a helping hand, you'll find one at the end of each of your arms. As you grow older, you will discover that you have two hands, one for helping yourself, the other for helping others.
The beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears, the figure she carries, or the way she combs her hair.
The beauty of a woman must be seen from her eyes, because that is the doorway to her heart, the place where love resides.
The beauty of a woman is not in a facial mole, but true beauty in a woman is reflected in her soul.
It is the caring that she lovingly gives, the passion that she shows.
The beauty of a woman grows with the passing years.
~Sam Levenson
Lord, today let me reflect the only true beauty. Yours.
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Hat Tip: Laura in IL

Notes from those jotting down the Gifts:
Seeing the Abundant Giver
"This gift list has transformed the way I think and view life. Suddenly, I am thankful for dirty dishes as they are an indication of a well-fed family. The insignificant has become compelling. Beauty abounds all around. The Giver imparts abundantly and extravagantly if we but have eyes to see. ~ Angie @ Sonflower
"I’m practicing the discipline (and joy) of giving thanks in times of stress.
There was a time when I would have dismissed this idea and would have simply chalked up the practice to being nothing more than ‘positive thinking’, in a new-agey-sort-of-way. But I’ve come to see that truth be told, it’s not so much about ‘positive thinking’ as it is about ‘reality thinking.’
Recognizing the gifts from God that ooze out around us is simply facing reality isn’t it? Seeing reality. Honest to goodness I feel like for the 1st time in my life I am beginning to see things clearly. ‘Open my eyes that I may see..’" ~ Chris in Edmonton
~~"After 17 years as a Christian I think I have finally understood a glimmer of what it means to abide in Christ.
This week I [studied] Col. 3:1-2...especially what it means to seek things above and set our minds on things above. I realized that all these long years that I have been battling my anger issues I have focused my thoughts and efforts on the anger...not on Christ.
Even though I knew I needed to abide in Christ and that he abides in me I didn't really understand what that meant... Well, now I do.
I need to fix my mind on HIM continually and seek those things above.
Now, I am trying to focus on blessings every time I feel frustation. I created this homekeeping/gratitude journal...I leave it out on my kitchen desk so that I don't get too busy to notice it.
I have been inspired, challenge, convicted and enlightened." ~ Laura in CA
Have you considered establishing gratitude as a permanent soul fixture? Just grab a scrap of paper lying around and begin counting the blessings, with your own 1000 Endless Gifts:
Why begin your own One Thousand Gift List --(drop me a line if you do, and I'll add you to the "1000 Endless Gifts" blogroll in the sidebar-- we invite you to join the Gratitude Community!)